Sunday, September 10, 2006
yo dudes....hows ur raining sunday...sucks??....mine really sucks...
today second day of my lvl 2 course...from sat the first day i already starting to feel the shaggness in it le...so early in the morning...the first thing we do was the lead climb...ok this was simple...i manage to do it without any worries...after tat it started to rain super heavy...den sianz le...cause if continue whole day...gonna come back another day...lucky god was on my side so it stop...while raining...i learn alot of things....like how to acsend without climbing and rappelling on u are on the top coming down alone....after lunch was mine death time...the test...and u will be thinking it is super funny ba...wat the hell lor really..after my partner climb is my turn..i was ready le...but it started to rain again..so we went to the classroom to slack and learn news knots again...at tat moment fear comes into me le...i felt i can't climb anymore...is like all my muscles are all shag out..not strength le...rain stop...so went out to continue the test...i decieded to go up...cause i thinking i can do it...i have been doing it since i wanted to go for lvl 2...but who knows...i climb...ok i can't use the rock is wet as an excuse...but i really slip and fell alot of times...using lots of my arms strenght...tat monet i started to panick...and moral was super low...i can't make it to the place i need to set my anchor....so i came down after everyone have done is my turn to go again...determine but still can't make it...when i was doing my last climb my hand was really shivering and when i hold i can't even feel tat i am holding on to something...started to panick again...after much encouragement from my group esp my partner...i made it....due to the fear i have already...i started to panick even more....i am in a very low moral and no self confidence at all..althought i trust my partner and my things...i totally blank out...totally blurred...as i an setting my anchor...i forget to lock my karabiner...not one but all...and i was like so disappointed le lor...haiz...althought instructor pass me and gave me my cert for the lvl 2...but i was sad i didn't feel i earn this cert...i can climb up but i can't today...so important the thing i can juz forget...i can't take my panicking and fear as an excuse really....so i am going to meet up wif him again to show him again....man this is really a suffer to me...and a big blow...
haiz...now i am feeling so moody...i juz can't accpect tat i didn't make it in the end...i know i can do it but y in the end it juz happen in this way...really disappointed in myself alot...
i am going to train up hard man...i know i can do it de....now i have a hurt arm and my pain is still aching like hell...haiz....
alright...to those who finish the hoildays today..enjoy ur last few hours..tml is going to be a next sch week and new sem....for those working....forget about the monday blues...and start the new week wif new hopes...for me...my new week is still the same....working from mon to fri.....sat and sun doing my own stuffs....sun my dive...i will be waiting for tat de....
tat for all folks........TTFN.....tata for now.....
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