Tuesday, December 18, 2007
so late and i am here blogging...why i juz got the mood to blog ba...i dun know how long this will be but i try to make it short if can...
so fast...dec is here which is the end of the year 2007..and today is already the 3rd week of dec time juz seems so fast...is flying...gosh...
2007 wat a year for me...a year full of most regret in my lifes..achivements i guess only some ba...
so fast it marks the end of my journey as a poly student wif a few more months to go...guess wat next thing will be going into NS and 2 and a half year later i will be out working and earning for myself...looking back at the past i have...i seems to regret quite alot...why didn't i plan my future when i was young think of wat i wanna do in 5 years down the road...miss quite a number of things in life i never manage to enjoy...looking at it...a few more years i am out in the work life...wat will i be doing...where will i be...how far can i go...will i keep myslef alive i seriously dun know...why juz blame it on myself...my future is seems so dark to me...everyone of my friends seems to know where and wat they wanna do and i doesn't..in my mind now i am juz thinking of signing on...will it be a gd choice or a bad one i dun know....after seeing wat my cousin going thru in NS i dun know...
regrets in life is really something tat hit me the most...why ain't i studying hard enough...why ain't sometime i can juz take things on a lighter note...there is so many things i regretted doing and choosing...things ain't going to be the same when i grow up...one step i step into a wrong path next time i am a goner...a loser...now i can change but i think is it too late..i dun know...
life is juz full of up and downs...is whether how we see it and go thru it...nthing comes easy in life we need to work for it push forward to have the aim...dreams are meant for us to reach out for...but some dreams juz not able to reach and not easy to reach...haiz....there is so many things i wanna do but now it seems so late...
wat my aim for the end of the year is juz to get my cert as a lifeguard....be a stress and rescue diver... i dun to end the year 2007 wif out anything...i have work so hard in these two aspect...i dun wan to fall down the drain....
looking at myself for 2007...i seriously dun know who am i and wat am i...i totally have no ideas sometime wat am i thinking doing or even planning....
2008 will be a whole new year...i am going let bygones be bygones...i am going to learn my own mistake pick them up and start a fresh....having a my regrets learnt and not doing it again...as regrets will hurt alot for me this year and i dun wan to repeat itself anymore...
i think from now till next year i might not blog anymore...i dun know...and maybe it marks an end to my blog too...and this maybe the last entry i am going to post...not tat i am lazy i juz dun know wat am i going to blog out next time...as my life is going to be the same for now and maybe the future having to do the same thing over and over again...will i regret or not i dun know...lets time tell everything ba...
for all readers out there if u hang on reading till here...thanx...but i doubt there is any...as this is juz a stupid post i written dun know for wat reason...sorry...
May i juz wish u guys a early merry christmas and happy new year....
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